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damn it has been awhile [02 Mar 2006|02:30pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Well damn i have not been in here since i was dating matt.So what has happened.Well me and matt broke up and so i started to see oni.Not really dated him just you no hang out we kinda sorta dated for alittle while.So after a month we finally started to really date and it it got serious fast. Everything was good.It was actually way to perfect.So he asked me to marry him and i said yes.Well that was a big fucking mistake.One day he just stopped calling me so on christmas i called him.He told me that he cheated on me and that he was getting back with his babies mom.Then totally fucked me up and i'm still not over it.Matt and me were friends for awhile after we broke up then he started dating a fat ugly whore.So us being friends didn't work.I'm getting through it all though.One day i will be over oni's sorry ass.Like everyone keeps saying i will find someone who will treat me good.I just loved him so much that i don't no what it is like not being with him.

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[15 Nov 2005|07:22pm]
Perfect Personality Survery
.the basics.
full name::christine jaimie sanborn
date of birth::june 30th 1987
do you act you age::not at all
eye color:Brown not hazel
hair color:brown
astological sign::cancer
pets::none
tattoos::i don't do pain
piercings::none anymore but i miss my lip and eyebrow being pierced
righty or lefty::righty
.what's your favorite...
food::cold pizza
song::caught fire
movie::a walk to remember
holiday::thanksgiving
perfume/cologne::adidas
pizza topping::pepperoni
number::12
cereal::that's sick
book::cut
.deep thoughts.
do you live in the moment?::no
do you think you're tolerant of others?::i try to be
do you have any secrets?::yes
do you hate yourself?::most of the time
do you have any bad habits?::smoking
do you like your handwriting?::no
what is your biggest fear?::never being happy
can you sing?::no
do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?::no why would that be cool
if you were another person, would you be friends with you?::probably not
what is your #1 priority in life?::i don't have any priority isn't that sad
are you passive or agressive?::passive
are you a daredevil?::no
what is your greatest strength?::i don't no
..your greatest weakness?::i don't no
do you think you're emotionally strong?::fuck no my emotion are all fuck up so thanks dad
is there anything you regret doing/not doing in your life?::not telling my dad just what i thought of him
what is the most important lesson you've learned in life so far?::love only leads to pain
what fictional character are you most like?::i don't no
are you wrongly percieved?::hey it's a big word
.have you ever..
been out of the country?::yes
broken a bone?::no
gone skinny dipping?::yes
dated one of your best friends?::no
loved someone so much it made you cry?::yes
decieved someone close to you?::yes
broken the law?::yes
came close to dying?::no
gone an entire day without eatting?::yes
.love.
have you ever been in love?::i don't no what that is anymore
how many people have you said it to?::3
how many people have you REALLY been in love with?::1
how many people have you kissed?::oh i don't remember i will admit that i am a kissing whore
how many people have you dated?::alot
what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?::eyes
do you believe in love at first sight?::no
do you remember your first love?::yes
do you believe in soulmates?::no
have you ever kissed in the rain?::yes
what's the worst thing about the opposite sex?:they think with the wrong head
what's the best?:thre is no best
.who..
knows you best?::justine
have you known the longest?::melissa
do you know the most about?::justine
do you consider your best friend?::justine
is most likely to end up in jail?::dee
can you go to with your problems?::justine
do you want to get to know better?::myself so there
do you spend the most time with?::justine
was the last person you laughed at?::matt
was the last person to disappoint you?::matt
was the last person you saw a movie with?::matt james justine and oni
was the last person you thought about?::i don't wanna say
was the last person to brighten your day?::justine
was the last person you talked to on the phone?::justine
was the last person you talked to on IM?::matt
was the last person you saw?::matt
.music.
what song do you swear was written about your life?::perfect
what's the most embarassing CD you own?::spice girls
what's the best CD you own?::in love and death
what song do you absolutely hate?:dance dance
do you sing in the shower?::yes
what song reminds you of that someone special?::dirty little secret
.random.
what's the scariest movie you've ever seen?::it
what's the last thing you ate?:chocolate
what's your favorite quote?:i don't no
who/what is on your 2005 calendar?::i don't have one
do you like chocolate?::yes
have you ever wished on a shooting star?::yes
the best halloween costume you've ever worn was::a bee
what's the best/worst feeling in the world?::feeling unloved
if you win the lotto, what would you do with the money?::give it to my mommy
so..is the glass half empty or half full?:half empty
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guess [25 Oct 2005|08:44pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

i guess i'm not important today
what can i say

i cut myself just 2 feel
just to tell if i'm real

cause i had no one to call
no one to catch me if i were 2 fall

i'm totally alone
and listening for my phone

i really needed a friend today
but there was no one there so with my blood i had 2 pay

for the pain i must have caused someone
and if this happens again i'm done

cause i refuse 2 use this razor again
i refuse to be nothing but a dirty sin

i kissed you

quizzes [25 Oct 2005|08:10pm]
I am 29% Promiscuous.
Active but Bored
Sure I have had sex, but what's the big deal? I find it as a chore to keep my realtionship balanced. But if I had a choice, I'd rather watch TV or paint dry.


I am 26% White Trash.
Not Too White Trashy
The white trash in my blood will not keep me from becoming a doctor or a lawyer, but it will keep me from a good haircut and any sort of fashion sense.
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[24 Oct 2005|11:19am]
[ mood | crazy ]

i did it again...i cut myself....but i got scared cause i couldn't stop the blood....and i didn't no what to do....i didn't no how to stop it...there is no point in lying about my cutting cause everyone that reads this knows i do....anyways i don't no how to find it from matt...what can i do...it's on my upper leg...it's still bleeding...i don't no how to make it stop...it's not even that bad

i kissed you

quizzes [11 Oct 2005|02:29pm]
Take the quiz: "Which Laguna Beach Character are You?"

LC
You are LC, very fashionable, rich, and GORGEOUS. You are bitchy but in a silent way. Who cares though with looks like that!?

Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)"

Brown
You have brown eyes. Brown is the color of the earth. Your eyes symbolize your comforting and fostering nature. You are stable, grounding, sophisticated, considerate, conventional and orderly. People may consider you to be cozy or warm. People feel safe when they are with you. Some words to describe you: reliability, elegance, security, healing, homely, grounding, foundation, and earthly.

Take the quiz: "What Kinda Kiss R U?"

Playful Kiss
The playful kiss is about you having fun and not needing to have feelings for that person. You just go with the flow!

Take the quiz: "What laguna guy is right for you??"

Talan
Talan is the guy for you!

Take the quiz: "How emo are you?"

Holy Shit Your Emo
Holy shit you actually are emo! Congratulations on not being a poser.
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What do you do [02 Oct 2005|12:47pm]
[ mood | confused ]

What do you do when the one you love isn't by your side
You have so many fears and no where to hide

Cause the one you love just doesn't understand you
Sometimes i just don't no what to do

I just think there is nothing left i can say
I don't no how much longer i can go on this way

Cause the pain i feel isn't right
I'm sick of the tears i cry every night

I love him so much it's insane
but he just can't see the pain

He doesn't no me like he should
If i could change things i would

But this relationship is coming to a end
and it hurts cause i don't wanna lose him as a friend

I feel like our realationship has turned into emptiness
so i will say everything with one last kiss

your my everything and more
but sometimes i just feel like your dirty little whore

and i no that this isn't what you think about me
but the hurt is all i can see

i have treated you so bad
and the pain i have caused you makes me so mad

i never wanted this to happen in such a bad way
i guess i have nothing left to say

i love you with all my heart
but for this time we have to be apart

3 kisses me back| i kissed you

what did i do yesterday [02 Oct 2005|11:25am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

well after i came home from brads i ate then went shopping with my mom...came home and waited for stacey to call... then we went to the mall and this lady asked me if i was old enough to smoke....i was just like yea...anyways we looked at homecoming dresses and pets and then found mike and left.....we hung out at my house for a little while then my mom told me to go get pizza...so me stacey and mike took my mom's car and went to get the pizza...i can't believe my mom let me use her car... mike was all asleep in the backseat when he was supposed to watch me drive...but whatever i was good but those wide turns were not fun...anyway um we hanging out after that walked to the gas station..we didn't do much...justine called and asked if we wanted to go to coney so we went it was fun... we hungout there.. then i was about to pass out so we went home...but sleep didn't work...i want to show stacey something before i went to bed..but after i got on i found someother stuff and i got all confused..and then i finally passed out around 3....now i'm tired so i'm going to sleep

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the meetings [29 Sep 2005|09:34am]
[ mood | blah ]

well the meeting wasn't that bad last night...alot of things happened....but lets get 2 the end of the night....mostly everyone had left but mike was busy doing things....so i told stacey to sit in matts car so she doesn't get wet from all the rain..she was upset so matt started to play stupid music to cheer her up...then he started to dance that was fun....not really...he should never dance..but anyways mike came over to get stacey to go but he was not in any state of mind to be driving..me and matt didn't really want her to go with him like that...so they talked for a while then we took her home...it was funny cause matt wouldn't admit it but he was lost in took us forever to get her home and then to get back to my house....i thought matt was gonna die cause he was so sick....then john called him..so he went over john's to see whatever john wanted him to see... then he called me when he got home....so i'm waiting for him to come over today....OMG everything is so confusing...don't get me wrong i love my boyfriend but sometimes i just wanna be 18 and not worry about commitment..... sometimes i miss so bad that i can't wait to see him.....other times i don't wanna see him...but i love him and don't wanna lose what we have...i don't no i feel like i'm in cage or something...but i'm a dork

i kissed you

love quotes [28 Sep 2005|11:54am]
[ mood | loved ]

Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.

- Stephen Packer -

When you love someone,
all your saved-up wishes start coming out.

- Elizabeth Bowen -

Love is like a mountain,
hard to climb,
but once you get to the top
the view is beautiful.

- Daniel Monroe Tuttle -

Love is not blind - It sees more and not less,
but because it sees more it is willing to see less.

- Will Moss -

To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world.

- Bill Wilson -

Love is a moment that lasts forever...

- Julie Wittey -

Love reminds you that nothing else matters.

- Amy Bushell -

A Friend's Love says:
" If you ever need anything,
I'll be there."

True Love says:
" You'll never need anything;
I'll be there."

- Jimi Hollemans -

i kissed you

[28 Sep 2005|10:46am]
[ mood | creative ]

well this is my new journal i will write in it later tonight

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